The suddenly sad feeling

Hello my people!

I hope that all of us, you and me, will have a fantastic week ahead waiting for us.
This note is dedicated to the old me, the now me and the new me (possibly until I change my habit :p).

Yes! I have to say that I am right now suddenly feel so sad! All the sad memories came back to me within a moment that I was still living my normal life. Why? Why was I both so happy and then suddenly sad at the same time? I live a busy life with clear routines but today, I have no desire to sleep early even I was off the work sooner; I did meet a nice lady and seemed things will be promising between our cooperation; I just stared at the dried clothes, don’t even want to touch them or fold them nicely; and money, yes, who caring right now about the budgets is definitely not me. It is not a ‘whatsoever’. It’s ways more complicated than that teenage word. May I give you the answer?

Just simple things lead you back to a moment of sadness and sorrow, then you know you start to sink deeper or at least realise why you have been so busy and be happy quickly than you thought. I make all the schedule by myself. My day off is usually a weekday, since long time ago, I don’t have a weekend but honestly I told myself that I didn’t care. When you are young, you should love working and aim high, prepare for a long future. Nevertheless, now I know everything of course will be fine, with its right solusion!

Oh my god! It is not hard to trust people.
It’s just too hard to believe in persons who hurt your feeling, again!

Mother advised me not to trust anyone but believe in myself. . . It doesn’t make sense right now, since now. How can you live without trust? Many things happen and surely something else will turn up, people change, life goes on, we keep moving on. We don’t even have time to explain or complain, to speak out our mind, fire away the words. I don’t even have courage to mention the tales any more since it betrays my rule ( If you forgive, you clear everything to get a new start!) and also, it hurts more, the quiet pains. We are afraid of what human says about us, who are human. What a cul-de-sac!

I wish that I could have made my mind clearly, to say more, write more about what hurt at once after stories happened. I also hope my mum had told me to believe in the right people, not ‘no trust in anyone’ when I stay so far away, too far to not be able to get back to her when I dreadfully cried. At all time, I wish myself to not try changing any human being in my life. We need to be different, it will be like different shades of a wonderful painting. Just leave it there and enjoy the art of living, so I wouldn’t be so sad like this.

The night is such an enemy. It is noisy, so noisy with the wind and the sound of car engines, the foot step of small funny pets or the tick-tack of clocks featuring with raindrops on the window. You will never be fine if you deal with things at night! You will never be fine when your are already tired!

Leave it there, take a rest and see what tomorrow brings to you..

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I don’t know, you know. Because if I do know, I would never have to say oh no.

MP.

8 facts about me ( for January!)

Image1. I love breakfast with Coffee and Croissant.

  1. My english name has the same meaning with the one my family gave me since I was born (Everything has a reason! Random choice? Nah nah!)

  2. Until now, martial arts is the hobby I wish I learned when I was a kid along side with music and art ( sing, dance, plays and drawing, as simple as possible to explain)

  3. I can speak fluently 2 languages and already started my 3rd one.

  4. Smelling books is one of my habits.

  5. I usually love doing housework enough to not fancying nail polishes, but, when I do my nails, I only apply colours in 3 nails maximum, and all colours are different at the same time.

  6. I wear black socks.

  7. I feel uncomfortable to (even) try or wear animal-printed clothes (no offence, just different choices at different ages)

The point is, I may change sooner or later. I hope that this post would not only help you get to know me but also help myself to keep a record of my own lifestyle. All these 8 factors has been with me for minimum 5 years and right now, I have no desire to change anything yet. Sometimes, if you write down things about yourself, you will realise how committed you have stayed for your true self or the other face of the coin, how boring you have lived in your young time. I don’t know…confusingly great maybe. If I am happy when I reread it in the future, I will constantly smile. In case I’m not, I think I just keep posting other facts, the currently new ones, yeah. We will see x

Have a fun Friday and nice weekend, people x

MP.

Moonily welcome!

I start this blog today, on 18 of January because one of my greatest memory began on an 18th some years ago. It was when I was really young, not just young…too young!

Now is in 2014, I’m in my 20s, the most precious time of a human life but I know why young people like me think it is not that precious since we have to spend time at schools, at work while we start to talk about money and jobs or unknown yet but scary ‘future’ waiting for us. I’m in that time, too so I understand the situation totally. However, it is still the time of youth, time of not being scared at all because this time, we are still young (enough to do it again)!

One of my new year revolution is to write more (or type more to share more so learn more). It seems simple without the brackets. That is everything I want in this year, not love as a couple, not super gorgeous dream as a famous star, not luxury clothes as a rich lady. I am young, sorry to admit, but that is the right for me to keep learning. Everybody can, they just refuse to do so.

I cannot tell you what exactly happen to make me create a new blog, I simply dislike Facebook recently and have an interest to stay anonymously when I write, like using pseudonym. ‘Moonppyong’ is Moon with ‘a heart’ in one of my mother language. With that name, I hope to write more stories in this life with my own heart to let people know me and understand my life more. Maybe it is not just my life, it can be many other persons’ situation, the point is who will speak first to find out that others would be the same, matching souls.

In the past, I would hate to express myself. I stayed away from a lot of people whom I had no idea about but no desire to know them, either. Why? Now I’m asking myself the same question. Did they hurt me? No. Were they bad people? Not quite or no idea. Any one stopped me to close to them? Who knew! Yes, nobody knows, even me. Of course, the fact that I cannot open myself to every single person that I have met but at least, I should trust human. Common! I kicked my own ego! There was one time when on the way getting back home after work, I told myself that if I trust human, it means that I trust myself, my choice as well. That was the time I realized how frustrated I had been, just deny to accept the truth.

Maybe because I am young, but now I know I have time, the treasure of life. So I am ready to share and learn.

think positive

I am an Asian living in one of the coolest city in the world, just so you know (a fact!) ^^
Please call me Ppyong, it will make us close.

Welcome to my space 😡