8 facts about me ( for February!)

It is almost weekend and nearly finish the second month of 2014!!!!!!
I don’t know about you but my weekend this week ‘s gonna be busy since I have deadline next Monday so God blesses me!! x

Today post is about my (other) 8 facts in my real life. I know that I am not really “normal” since I want to stay anonymously but still give you some facts about my life. I just simply believe that when I open myself to people even though they have never ever seen me and they still give a smile of recognition for my words, it means a real connection. That’s all I hope and I want for when I do this blog 😡

So, let’s start!

  1. Since I was a kid, my parents believed that I could be a good teacher in the future because I was pretty good at learning things by heart. Honestly, I am in the opposite side. It is not because I’m bad with kids, I just want to dance and do plays. Parents usually think that when you are a kid, you have no idea about what you learn and will not remember the joy and the happiness you would have at that super young age for doing what you love to do. NO!!! I miss and remember everything even now.
  2. My younger brother looks different from me just because he has special eyelids (which means to be very handsome when he grows up, for sure!!!) 😛
  3. I like photography and I admire talented, hardworking photographers. However, for myself, I just use a compact camera since the professional one is too heavy and I have been taught that the best tool and the best light is the one you have in your hands, no matter what!
  4. The amount of books that I own is much more and heavier than my clothes :-<
  5. I keep my diary with me all the time. And a pen, of course!
  6. If we actually know each other in real life, after 1 year without meeting, you will never recognise me if you spot me at the back because my hair grows fast. One year means short becomes long like never ever being cut -.-
  7. I can make a book ( and already made one!)
  8. My beauty tip for nice skin is eating one apple every morning x ( Trust me, ladies and gentlemen!!!)


These are factors which have been selected randomly in my life. If you keep tracks by reading my blog, you may code each of them to see what are important in my real life x Not so complicated, isn’t it? ^^

I hope that you are doing well and I’ll see you on March xoxo


Younger Me

Almost weekend, I cannot wish for more!

How have you all been? I hope you had great time at work and relaxing weekend waiting for you!

I finished one of the biggest project in my life today and now I am totally in mood for the weekend even though Friday will still come with other tasks. You know what, if you have been working for one month without any literarily Saturdays and Sundays off from work, you will understand my feeling now!!!!! I did feel so old after these hard time but then today, I’m telling you what held me on honestly.

I have a habit that I usually write a letter for myself and save it for the tough time. I have to say that actually when I feel so down, I cannot remember the letter at first. If I am tired, I just want to forget the world and wish that everybody loses my contact or completely have no idea about me; just leave me alone, in other words! After one or two days, I choose to clean my rooms; start at the place that I’m standing to make significant changes; then it is the moment I found out the letter I wrote for myself long time ago. This time, it happened like a miracle when I was under a lot of pressures and overworked and my health condition got worse. The story in the letter is the one I had already got over two years ago and I always recall this memory as the most special one in my life (until now). The point is, even though the situations are different now and then, if I can do once, I can make it twice! The younger me told me to believe in myself that nothing can be worst than losing myself. She also advised me to take not just a deep breath but as many deep breaths as I can in order to create the balance for myself. Frankly, and admittedly, I am afraid of what other people think of me, judge me and criticise me. I can see it from myself that I try to be nice, even submissive most of the time to let people express themselves but there must be complaint(s) since nobody is perfect. The annoying fact is that I hate myself if I do not try to do as best as I can while the dilemma is that I should not do everything by myself because it would put pressure on my colleagues and make them feel uncomfortable, would put me in bossy situation and keep seeing the lack of proficiency of my team mates, and importantly I would stay reserved since I prefer working alone to save my time and keep my superficial image (always nice and smile with mad brain).

I want to be better and to open my mind so I tried to find a way to improve myself whenever I can. I know my problem and honestly when life gets hard just because of my thoughts about a hard life, I speak to my own that life is so hard out there so I don’t have to be the one to punish myself. One of the best method is reading the dear letters by people who you trust the most, in my case is the letter written by younger me. I also do yoga and meditation but last project took all of my time so the best solution was sleeping! Drinking detox liquid (warn still water and fresh lemon juice with 2 drops of honey) help my body and my skin maintain the water. I usually joke with my friends that with enough coffee, I can do anything. Detox liquid provides great amount of vitamin C and water that has been taken from all cups of joe! That’s basically all my cure for the hardest time ever since I moved out to leave alone. Some cures comes from common knowledge, others comes from personal emotions and memories. We all need both, don’t we?

These are what I have recently. What is yours? ^____^

I will see you real’ soon, with some facts about me for this month x

Have a nice weekend, everyone!



Lunar New Year

Happy Lunar New Year everyone!

I have been busy doing work and group meeting recently so I could not post any new topic after the last sadness.

As you all know that I am an Asian. In my country, as well as other asian/ southeast asian countries, we celebrate Lunar New Year as we follow two systems of calendars, one like Western calendar depending on the movement of the sun, and the other one is following the moon; that’s why we call it ‘Lunar’. For Asians, we treat ourselves a Lunar New Year holiday like Western people’s Christmas time. We always miss our families if we cannot come back, we miss the traditional cuisines specially made for the holiday. Once a time each year, we gather around with our family members and go to visit our relatives, call our friends for best wishes and happiness for them in the new year. Oh, and we actually have some days off before the Lunar New Year Eve, then we clean the house with kids, we buy new clothes, decorate every corner with beautiful flowers…It is the best time of the year! Time for the old, and the new; for the beginning and the present.

Every year, I make a New Year Revolution list. Last year, I just wished I could have read more books and drink more water, train my body to be in shape then all would be great ( yes, greedy me :p). This year, looking back at last 12 months, I realise that I did loose weight a little bit. It is an excuse when I said I started keeping track on my weight ONLY since November but still, I did keep my body balanced since then till now and hopefully be better before summer of 2014. About books, I finished 3 fictions and 5 academics, oh yeah. It is not bad, isn’t it? I will do my best so don’t worry that I’ll change sooner or later. That’s not my style when it comes to books! Water? 1 pint every morning after waking up 😉

So what is next? Due to my routine sine late 2013 until now, I have been extremely busy working, meeting people, doing small projects, sharing time with my family and friends…and maintaining my hobbies at the same period of time (each week for my case). That’s why I want to learn ‘How to use time efficiently’. I have a lot of things that I have to do, I must do, I want to do and I need to do. How to tackle the Time topic, it’s not easy.
Afterthat, I officially want to gain experiences about dealing and negotiating with people – Human Beings! It is so hard, oh my god! How can it supposed to be this way since I am always being the submissive style to forget about myself and give others chances to be happier with whatsoever they wish for? I changed, didn’t I? I felt guilty at the same time with confusing and truly sadly mad when I tried to treat people well every time and one time happened differently then I felt so lost. It is not about creating a perfect image in colleagues’ eyes, I might overwork so I felt tired of everything. However, I don’t have time to stop even. Snow ball effect influences my mood a lot and I really want to escape sometimes. What they usually say is right, bad things come at the same time! I’m so missing my carefree moments, learning stuffs that I like, talking to people who close to me, staying my mom, dad and siblings.
(Detailedly, I used to wish that I could work with people I knew already and we were then a perfect team. The fact proved me so wrong!!!! Lame excuses, lack of responsibilities, blaming and keep blaming, a series of No this and No that… Oh gosh! That’s why you should do business with your customers, your clients, your never-met-before people, even your competitors…just NOT your folks!)

I still consider myself as a lucky person because I have my job, I have my position and I still (want to) believe in myself. And I have you, my readers, who will listen to me when I have hard time to express my feelings.
Thank you for all of the time you spend here x

After all, it is a new year!
When we are young, we can learn to understand. Time and Human beings are the most two difficult subjects to master so be persistent and patient! Hard working will be paid back x

Great Lunar New Year, everyone!
Happy and Successful 😡